i am cancer
i twist my way into your life, only to get cut out
i am cancer
if i haven’t killed you, you’d better start running now
i am cancer
i will leak from your eyes right down to your heart, i’ll break you down so much, you’ll never return to who you once were
i am cancer
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Living with manic depression, anxiety, and bipolar disorder really takes from you. I don’t know what to expect when I wake up in the morning (that is.. if I am able to get some sleep). One day, I am ready to conquer the world. I plan out my day, excited to see friends, I have energy to get dressed up and put on makeup. I feel good. Other days, I can’t move. Why am I doing this? What is the point of all of this? It takes everything inside of me to get up and move on throughout my day. But those days are just.. slow. I feel useless, like my presence on this earth is unneeded. Unwanted. Honestly, I’m exhausted. This is no way to live and it’s beginning to take a toll on my body physically, and affecting my relationships and the way I view the world..
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